so why was it i am still stuck in the same class? why is it that people that are less advanced than me had moved up. why is that a HUGE part of my life and been swallowed and spit out at me and was left of shit. fuck them i dont need that. i have spent my life working that hard to be shut down at this point. i need a new studio. but i am sick of finding a new one. if i leave it will be my fourth one i will be attending. i tell you what every single dance company holds grudges, every single one.
so when am i going to unwind? i already am, i have nothing else left to cry about, all i have is shame in myslef and the fact that i cant even get into a fucking advanced class.
so whats this i hear about bryan shaw telling people that him and i hooked up? why would i? why would he sink that low and tell people that. i dont even know him that well. people jsut dont say those things about me they never have. i wouldnt even think of people doing that to me. they know me. i dont mess with them.
i need myslef to get straightend up.
and i dont think anyone can cheer me up on this one.